I don't want to be alone.
I will ask you before I do ANYTHING so I know if I am allowed, so I will not upset you again.
to an Extent Although apologizing can be a way to maintain the integrity and move on from actions we're not proud of, most of us also want to repair the relationship and be forgiven.
Well, I hope I see you soon and that you aren't too angry at the revelation that this is too much for me and I love you anyways, because you are my dad and I only have one.
You are perfectly justified to feel that way and I would too if I was in your position.